The Flesh — Emptiness
Core theme: Condition
Tone: Reflective
There is a kind of nothingness that feels deeper than being lost.
It isn’t loud. It isn’t heavy. It has no clear emotion attached to it. It’s a vast, vague emptiness—directionless, undefined. You can still function inside it. You can still do many things. And that’s what makes it dangerous.
It feels worse than depression.
With depression, there is weight. Sorrow. Resistance. But with nothingness, there is numbness—and numbness allows motion without meaning.
So we name it “nothing” and push it away.
We ignore it. We distract ourselves. We tune out the quiet noise of emptiness whenever it becomes too loud to avoid.
But when I finally stopped running from it, I realized something.
It wasn’t emptiness.
It was longing.
A deep desire with no language. A space that kept expanding because I didn’t know how to fill it.
And that led me to a deeper question:
How do you satisfy an infinite desire?
The Condition of Humanity
To answer that, we have to return to the beginning.
In Genesis 2:7, God forms man from dust and breathes into his nostrils the breath of life—and man becomes a living soul.
What’s important here is not just creation, but dependence.
Breathing is not satisfied with one breath. It is a continuous need. Life is sustained only through constant connection to its source.
In the same way, the human soul carries an innate desire to remain connected to the source of life.
That longing never disappears.
Misinterpreting the Signal
When I confronted the emptiness instead of ignoring it, I realized it wasn’t something to escape—it was something calling me back.
The emptiness was not absence.
It was invitation.
Ignorance had taught me to fear the space, when the space was actually revealing what I lacked.
Ignoring emptiness doesn’t make it go away.
It suffocates us.
Learning to Breathe Again
This is why Christ came.
Not simply to forgive wrongdoing—but to restore connection. To teach us how to breathe again. To reconnect us to the only source capable of satisfying infinite desire.
The more we want to live, the more we must breathe.
And perhaps that’s why the emptiness hurts when ignored.
It is the soul gasping for air.
To be continued → Episode 5